Time is a cruel mistress....

I was on facebook last night, and I was talking to a family member I haven't seen in probably 20 years. The last time I saw him we were eating choc chip pancakes his mom made. And still to this day if I go out to eat, and they have choc chip pancakes I order them. But they never taste the same.

Isn't it funny how certain smells, tastes, sounds and places make you think of your past? It is still strange for me to think or say, it has been 20 years since....or I haven't in 15 years....I have recently found friends that I have known since I was 9 and 13....And talking with them made me realize that time is cruel and relentless. Sometimes I feel 15 again at least mentally, and then I think about how long ago 15 was...and I feel old! I think some of that is having a child yourself, mine is 3 going on 12(or so she thinks)...And I am one of the lucky ones, there are so many single mom's out there struggling...I was a single mom for the first year and a half of Morghana's life.

And now I have a wonderful man in my life, that loves me and loves Morghana as if she was his blood. To me she is his, they have the same color eyes, same gap in their teeth....lol silly I know.She calls him daddy....Her "sperm Donner" of a father never calls to talk to her..never send money...He does NOTHING! And most of the time she doesn't even ask about him. Wow.....I think I'm going off the deep end here. Lack of sleep will do that. Anyhow, I will be back later....right now I have to bake a carrot cake with my daughter.

Okay....

I thought I should get in on the blogging thing, I have one already for my photography. But I wanted one just for me and my rants, raves and other nonsence. A place to vent about everyday crap..So here I am.

And believe me I have alot to rant and rave about, as any mother does. First things first!

1. The swine flu sucks major a**.
2. Cleaning while sick with the swine flu sucks major a**
3. Getting your child back when not fully recovered from swine flu sucks even more a**

Advice for any mother, if you think you or your child/children are coming down with this crap go see a Dr.right away...I waited to long and wasn't able to get antiviral meds..so I had to wait it out. Then when I wanted my daughter to get a flu shot, no one had any! So I am praying that she does not get the flu. It's nasty stuff, I have been sick with it for almost 2 weeks now.
Anyways, that is my first post. Take care all.